well...what can I say?my classes surprisingly no one even cared to ask me about but ill let all know anyway i failed one class. so apparently i can't go back to college...and i took a week off from working so i could concentrate on my finals,little did i know my Room mate/sister had decided that i could pay her full rent and bills from my pay check,so to try and get this money i had to start work right away so that maybe i would have enough money for the experience of living.So things haven't been going vary uphill for me in fact i just keep rolling back.one of my best friends. has done something so bad it makes me Cry,like right now,when I'm trying to sleep I cant even really talk about it without crying.because I'm Still trying to Grasp the fact that this person i have known for eleven years has done something like this to me has lied to me on countless times. i cant or more wont tell what this person did online because that's dirty.I would just be showing how low i am to bitch about it. It hurts me Way more then it makes me angry...I want to hug them,i want to feel like i have someone who understands me. But i cant even look at them they hurt me so much I cant sleep. that's why I'm writing this at 5 am...I thought we where closer...i thought that's this friend ship was worth more. i tried to be there for her to lean on i would do almost Everything she wanted.We talked to one another Every day.EVERY DAY,and now...to help her and myself Ill have to brake apart from her. I don't even know this person anymore.And i feel So bad,it feels like..i have been ripped apart. Taken advantage of. and completely used and....and there's nothing for them to use anymore.because there's nothing left in me to give.I feel Bad...i feel bad for ever thinking i could trust them and i feel bad because they just lost me.they lost there only support, The only REAL friend they could tell anything to and wouldn't be judged. had total support.It hurts that I cant stop caring about them and Hoping they restart there lives,I know they can do it. All they have to do is just Try. I Hope what they did hurts them because it is KILLING me....there are so many things i have that remind me of them and it only makes me cry more my eyes are raw Even my God Dame Number was something we both played Together as kids.And please just...no one comment on this,you want to help? just don't say anything.I'm already getting enough "Advice" from noise family. No amounts...of saying Sorry will ever fix this pain i feel.